let it begin...

i. love. baseball. no, i don't watch it all that much. but i love it. i love to play it. i love to watch it. and now i love to watch courtney play it. tball started for her yesterday and i was c r a z y excited! she had a blast, she loved to play, and she did great. when the game started i told paul they can have five parents out on the field...he says "i don't want to be that dad". half way into the inning he says "i'm going out there". an inning later he sends me a text saying "i love this". needless to say, we are proud...once again of our little girl. i played baseball for years. was the only girl and to see courtney out there is just so much fun. but most of all, she enjoys it. i will never make he do things because i love them and thankfully i didn't have to test that with baseball. isn't she adorable!!!!???

i love taking pictures

just some recent iPhone pictures.

i will one day miss these days

daddy has been out of town for five days. ..which i can post now that he will be home... courtney and i always have had the agreement that when daddy works late or is out of town she can sleep in our bed. as i laid down last night and looked over...i realized that i will one day miss this view. i pray...literally...that we will always be close enough that she will come lay in bed with me when daddy is away or her husband is away. it may sound silly or even weird but it's my baby girl and these are some of my favorite times. the "i love you mommy" whisper as she rolls over. the times she puts her arm over me as she sleeps. and even the not so gentle kicks in the middle of the night. i will one day miss these days.

ode to the pump

good bye dear friend. it's been great. it's been fun. but now my baby boy is one. the hours i have spent with you outweigh to whom i said "i do". it's time we go our separate ways and I can once again enjoy my days. i wish i could say i'll miss you but that would just not be true. i must let you go and free the freezer too. so. goodbye is what i'll leave you with.

good. bye. my. dear. breast. pump.