Monday, January 28, 2013

what i've learned lately

who's this guy? oh. he's my husband. yeah. i know. i write about our kids most of the time. i write about church some of the time. i don't write about him much. maybe i should. he's kind of an alright guy. so i guess i'll start.

i am blessed to watch him grow in Christ day by day. i am blessed to stand by his side when he does amazing things for other people. i am blessed to help him up when he falls. i am blessed to walk along side of him when things are just going along. i am blessed to be his wife. i am blessed to raise our children along side of him. i am blessed to be a teacher to him. and i am blessed to have him teach me. see. this is my husband, and he is a blessing. 

now. if you don't know me, you may be thinking i have the perfect husband and marriage. (i'm thinking "why is someone who doesn't know me reading my blog") if you do know me, you may be thinking 'what the heck, i know you guys don't have it all together'. sadly per the world, the latter is right. and proudly to our faith, the latter is right. there is no perfect husband (or wife even though we think we are) and there is no perfect marriage. per the world, there are 'really bad marriages and really bad husbands' though, but per our God - we are all kinda sucky, but forgiven and redeemed and offered grace. 

see, lately, i have learned a lot about marriage and God and my role and our direction. 1 Peter says to win him over by my godly ways (Annie version). it doesn't say to be a loud wife who demands change. a friend told me to trust God to protect me, to protect our children - the world tells me to get out as soon as it 'gets too bad'. and there were times - too recently times i was ready to follow that worldly answer. no, i would never leave my husband; God already gave me that answer many years ago - he hates divorce. he forgives divorce, but he hates it and therefore i won't do that. but the world had be convinced that if my husband was doing this, or that, i could 'protect myself' and walk away until it was 'good enough for me'. my husband isn't a bad guy, he makes poor choices some times. but guess what...so do i. 

“Whoever would love life
    and see good days
must keep their tongue from evil
    and their lips from deceitful speech.
They must turn from evil and do good;
    they must seek peace and pursue it.
For the eyes of the Lord are on the righteous
    and his ears are attentive to their prayer,
but the face of the Lord is against those who do evil.”
1 Peter 3:10-12


want to know how i read that? well, i read that as if i love this life Christ gave me and want good days, be nice, speak nice, do nice. He (Christ) will hear my prayers. if that prayer is for a better marriage, a husband seeking God, health...it doesn't matter; he hears those of the righteous. i have been reminded and shown scripture of prayers of the righteous being answered over the past few months. some times it speaks louder than others but this time is spoke pretty loud. to love my husband. truly love him - the bible calls for this too...i know, craziness. and to speak good and do good. seek peace and pursue it. wow. not seek peace - oh there it is, hope it comes my way. but pursue it - go after it. and a biggie...not if - this verse, nor any other say if. that means (tying it all together here) that the world is wrong. i don't get to choose what is good enough to make me do right. God tells me to do right and seek right no matter what. and that's what i will do. from big to small. from worldly wrong to godly wrong. from today to tomorrow. i love my husband and my God. and i must say, it's kinda an awesome feeling. now, pray for me to stay that way because we all know, it isn't always easy.


a plus? he's kinda hot :-)

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